Thursday, 15 October 2009

Forgiving and phobia

Last night, stay awake till sunrise..
Quite suprising..out of sudden, someone texted me.
And appology.. well, its been 4 years..
i didnt aware that i've been hating and feel phobia towards that person that long.
I could look to his name, phobia to see.. hate to think.

Last nite, that someone appologies for what ever appen between us.
Honestly, i thought that person will ignore what he has done.
Until now...finally he-confess that he was suffering coz of 'guilty' in this 4 years.
I cried-actually, coz its hurt.. and sensitive to me. After few hours trying hard to convince me and regreting what ever happen, finally i could spill out the word.
'i forgive you'.. but with one condition-never ever forget what u ever did.. if u forget, u gonna repeat it again.

Finally, u got ur respect back again.


Trust nobody?

Thursday, 8 October 2009

A letter for someone special

Wake up in the evening, I open the fridge.
Google inside, all i see is a bunch of chocolates.
Grab some, eat. So crunch!! A good feeling strike my heart.
Walk towards the sofa, sit and lay. I push the remote's button.
I watch chanel V & MTV till the darkness come.
Its 10.10 at night. I'm waiting for you.. 10.11 pm.
Knock3!! See! U're back home with a box of 6 peanut pies.
All i can give is my very honest smile and thanks.
You said nothing but smile back at me.
There is no one like you.
You are the only one in this earth.

I love you

Dedicated to my brother.

With love,

Tuesday, 6 October 2009

if you want me *song*

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can’t tell dreams from truth
for it’s been so long
since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me,
if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me,
if you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure
that you’d believe me
when others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
when you know I really try
to be a better one to satisfy you
For you’re everything to me
and I’ll do what you ask me if you’ll let me be,

If you want me satisfy me,
if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me,
if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me,
if you want me satisfy me


Today..i take some time to check every one's blog.
but actually, not everyone. ho3.. well, i missed a lot [i guess].

julu : dia kata Indon x sedar diri. 2 yg aku faham. Aku pun beringat2lah jugak. hehew..

bet: boke sukkomi dia tuh.. alahaila.. mest nampak cm bodo jer. kah3..

aimi: aih, aku lupa plak pasal kejar cita2 sebelum mengejar cinta tuh. ha3.. aku dh kembali ke jalan asal.

kidut: banyak pula ga,br kawin ko buat ar.. sa kawen ambil gambr free ar? hahah..

Well, actually when i don't write anything here, i write it in my DIARY. ho3...
can u believe that? i do write? hohoh... but its true. i to read what i wrote a few years ago. I end up with lafin' at myself. Wtf i wrote huh? I can see the difference of the way i think year by year. That is the real motive. I'm thinking of showing a piece of my diary to all of you sooooon... which year do u want me to show??bagi 2006 la.. nak?

nape senyap sangat?

Ho3..hi to everyone. [assuming that someone still remember my blog].
well, i have nothing much to share with everyone. Its just that recently i have too much things in my mind. I don't wanna mix up everything then get mess with everybody.
such a waste to write. Lately i had so much obstacles.. but Thanks God. i'm still here writing.

What exactly the big deal huh? well, its time to forget the stuffs. hahah..

Anyway, im still alive.
Even not for so long maybe.. but i'm ok with that.

Selamat HAri Raya to everyone.